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Chapter 6

Robert's sister Vivian had never liked me, not exactly, not in a way she'd ever say outright, but in the particular manner of women who measure other women by the silverware they inherited and find them wanting. She arrived for Thanksgiving with a bottle of wine that cost more than my first car and a smile that never reached anywhere near her eyes.

"Claire," she said, air-kissing somewhere near my cheek. "You look well. Rested, even. Marriage agrees with you now, I take it?"

"It does," I said. "Robert's learning to agree with it too."

Vivian laughed like I'd made a joke instead of a statement of fact, and swept past me into the dining room, where she immediately began rearranging the place cards.

I let her. Some battles aren't worth the table space.

It was over the turkey that she found her opening. "I heard about the little arrangement," she said, not looking up from her plate. "The loan. To Robert's firm."

The table went quiet in that particular way tables go quiet when everyone suddenly finds their food fascinating.

"It wasn't a little arrangement," I said evenly. "It was a business loan, with terms, reviewed by counsel."

"Of course," Vivian said, in the tone of someone humoring a child. "Still. It's rather unusual, isn't it? A wife lending to her husband's firm. Almost like you don't quite trust him to handle it himself."

"I don't lend money to people I don't trust, Vivian. That would be a terrible use of money."

Paige, seated beside me, made a small sound that might have been a suppressed laugh.

Vivian's smile tightened. "I only meant—"

"I know what you meant," I said, still pleasant, still cutting my turkey with the same unhurried motion. "You meant it as a small cut, dressed up as concern. I understand the technique. I've simply gotten better at recognizing the knife."

Robert, at the head of the table, set down his fork. "Vivian."

"I was only asking a question," she said, chin lifting.

"You were only being unkind," he said, "and at my wife's table, which she made, from a recipe she didn't have to share with any of us."

The silence that followed had a different texture than the one before — not tense, exactly, but recalibrating, the way a room recalibrates when someone finally says the true thing out loud.

Vivian didn't apologize. Women like Vivian rarely do, not directly. But she was quieter for the rest of the meal, and when she left, she held my hand a beat longer than necessary and said, "The cake was good, by the way," which was, for her, something close to surrender.

Later, washing dishes with Paige beside me, drying instead of washing because she still refused to learn which pots needed soaking, she said, "You didn't even raise your voice."

"I didn't need to. The truth doesn't require volume."

"I'm going to write that down somewhere," she said. "For later. For when I have my own Vivians to deal with."

"You will," I told her. "Everyone does. The trick isn't avoiding them. It's not shrinking for them."

She handed me the last pot to dry and looked at me sideways. "You're kind of terrifying, you know that?"

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"I prefer 'settled.'"

"Same thing," she said, "on the right woman."

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